Welcome to another week of “On Purpose.” If you're curious about the thought behind this series, click here for its introductory post.
I am detecting a theme here lately. . . I am falling short of my goals. On one hand, I want to be more strict with myself so that I actually accomplish these things. (That is the whole point of this, right?!) On the other hand, I want to celebrate the successes I have so that I am not so hard on myself that I stagnate & quit making any kind of progress. . . (I think this is also why I am getting this published quite a bit later in the day than usual!)
With all of that said, even though I counted it as a success, last week, for getting the laundry folded, the handsome husband went in for a nap as the post was scheduled & it never got done (because I was afraid of disturbing him). Since then, every time he wasn't in there, I wanted to spend the time with him — or I was exhausted & just wanted to go to sleep. Excuses, excuses, I know. What it boils down to is that I just didn't make it high enough of a priority, regardless of the obstacles. The “funny” thing about this is that when I finally get around to it, I suspect that it won't be as daunting of a task as I am making it out to be. . . We will see. . . (That task is getting put on the back burner for now while I figure it out.)
I did get a tote & a half emptied from the spare room, which mostly involved moving a bunch of books to the bookcase in our living room. It's a nice little dent on the junk in that room, so I am feeling quite motivated to continue, so that's good. 😉
I didn't make a physical list of school supplies, but I did give it sufficient thought, so I feel pretty prepared for classes to start next week. Definitely marking that one as a success!
And, lastly, it could be argued one of two ways in regard to my morning walks. . . I am choosing to call it “cutting myself some slack” because I have been having some pretty severe headaches lately & my uveitis has been acting up. (Not sure what uveitis is? Click here for the Wikipedia definition. . . But, basically, it is an inflammation of the eyeball. It causes blurred vision, light sensitivity, & other things. . . I am positive it is contributing to my headaches, which also leads to added tension in my neck & shoulders, for some reason.) SO, I finally filled a prescription for a super expensive eye drop that I was supposed to be using all this time, but stopped back towards the end of May when we miscarried & I was feeling all kinds of sorry for myself. . .
The other way to look at my morning walks is simply that I got lazy & used the eyeball as an excuse. I suppose reality lies somewhere in the middle. But, frankly, I just need to do better at taking care of myself, period. Now, I just need to figure out what that balance will be for me. . .
So, if you can't tell yet, I am feeling pretty defeated this week. It would be easier to just let it go, but I am bound & determined to maintain some consistency here — at least for my own sake (because, Lord knows no one reading this is all that invested in whether I succeed or fail!).
SO, this week, I am still setting my goals, but I am going to make sure they are goals that only require a small stretch to accomplish. . . The intent is to build up my confidence a bit & (hopefully) gain some momentum in regard to feeling purposeful. Here is what I plan to accomplish, on purpose this next week:
- I will get the spare room cleared out so the handsome husband can get the bed set up in there. Even if I do not get everything into its new home this week, I will at least get it organized in the closets so that I can go through it at a leisurely pace in the not-so-distant future.
- Now that I have everything I need, I will get my book bag organized for classes to start next week, so that I am not fumbling to open the package of pens or to find whatever it is that I need.
- Even though I am back on the eye drops I am supposed to be using, I still need to make a decision about which ophthalmologist I want to see & make an appointment. These drops are usually prescribed to patients after eye surgery, so it is potent stuff! I need to be under the care of a physician to ensure that the pressure of my eye stays at an acceptable level — one thing I shouldn't mess around with is my eyesight, so I should probably figure it out & quit being so stubborn about this one. . .
Now, it’s YOUR turn! Tell me what you need to be more purposeful about in your life this week. Share in the comments below, send me an email (firstname.lastname@example.org), or connect on the Calculated Chaos Facebook page. If you’re a blogger, leave a link to your goal-related or purpose-filled post in the comments; I would love to come visit!
Have a purposeful week, y’all!
To read the next post in this series, click here.