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A Rainbow in Even the Darkest of Clouds

I will be honest; I wasn’t going to write anything for Ten Things of Thankful. Again. Ugh. BUT, then I remembered that this week marks the 100th week! So, I should probably pull my crap together to be a part of it, eh? 😉

I am grateful Ten Things of Thankful exists. (Thankful #1) I might not participate as often as I would like or as often as I really should, but it is a nudge in the right direction when my thoughts get too gloomy. Heck! Even when I don’t participate, knowing it is out there has me thinking about what I would write if I wasn’t so caught up in my own thoughts to the point where I can’t untangle the mess enough to create a post. The reminder to be thankful sometimes is enough.

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I am a Girl.

Please forgive the vent. . . I just couldn’t help myself today.

I think this often lately, yet it’s one of the subjects I try not to talk or write about. . .

It’s uncomfortable. . . Slightly embarrassing (not just for me, but sometimes for the reader/listener, I am sure). . . Kinda personal. . . Occasionally disgusting. . . Downright unpleasant. . .

Yet, I know I am not the only one who currently struggles with this — or has or will have to deal with it, for that matter.

It is a fact of life.

Keep scrolling or click away if you must. . . Or keep reading if you’re curious, I suppose — just don’t say I didn’t warn you.

The problem is the fact that I am a girl. . . That’s what my grandmother would call it, anyway. . .

It sucks. (Image from morgueFile.com)

It sucks. (Image from morgueFile.com)

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That’s a Wrap, 2014 (TToT #13)

Oh. My. Word! It just dawned on me that this is the LAST Ten Things of Thankful post of the year! Say, what?! I know it’s terribly cliché to say so, but time really does fly. . . Where has the year gone??

So, I thought I would go through my year — full of its ups & downs — & find this week’s thankfuls among those. . . Bear with me, this is gonna be a long one! (But I was sure to link up to other posts throughout the year that pertain to this recap, of sorts, so try to have fun with it, will ya?)

Ups & downs. . . Yet full of thankfuls. (Image from morgueFile.com)

                                                Ups & downs. . . Yet full of thankfuls. (Image from morgueFile.com)                                             I am chuckling to myself because in all of my carefulness, I still messed up my TToT numbering. . . HOURS after publishing, I realized that TWO weeks ago, I duplicated the numbers & didn’t catch it. . . This is actually TToT #13. I updated the title, but have decided to leave the “evidence” of this little mess up in this picture & in the URL for this post, as well as last week’s TToT post. Haha. Hope you get a little laugh out of this too! Eh. It is what it is. What can I say? 😉

 

 

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Wash. Rinse. Repeat. (TToT #11)

What contradictions. I am full of them. . .

I crave routine, but I’ll grow bored with it after a short while. . .

I want to go back to work — to contribute to our household, financially — but I have very little desire to go back to retail (what I have the most experience in), now that I have had over a year away from it.

I want to write (blog) more frequently, but I get so stuck in my own head that I can’t find the proper words to share.

I want to write a TToT post — each of the two weeks I’ve missed since my last TToT post, I thought about it more than once — It’s just that I feel like it is the same TToT post damn near every single week. . .

I am sad. I am bored. I have no reason to feel either. The handsome husband wants me to see someone (i.e. some kind of therapist), but I just can’t bring myself to start that tedious search. . . & I am frightened that it’d mean trying medication. (Been there, done that — YEARS ago — & it wasnt pretty.)

Wash. Rinse. Repeat. Just put in the motions & see what happens. Same ol’, same ol’. Day after day.

Same ol', same ol'. Go through the motions. (Image from morgueFile.com)

Same ol’, same ol’. Go through the motions. (Image from morgueFile.com)

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Wishes vs Intentions (On Purpose: Revisited)

I’ve been in somewhat of a foul mood lately. . . I wanted a post that would allow me to vent some of my frustrations in a semi-positive (although, perhaps, unorthodox?) way. SO, I present to you “WISHES,” my small “wish list” of sorts, fashioned from some of my frustrations of lately. Then, towards the end, is “INTENTIONS,” taking a moment to reflect back on the On Purpose series I temporarily abandoned during my recent month-long unscheduled hiatus from Calculated Chaos. . .

Images from Morguefile

Wishes vs Intentions – Washington vs Arizona (Images from morgueFile)

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How Dare I?

Obviously, it’s been over a month since I last posted.

It seems I am at one extreme or another.

This isn’t anything new with me. Yet, every time something happens to remind me of it, I am just as surprised as the last time. It makes absolutely NO sense. But, there it is. Knowing this makes it no less true. It is what it is, I suppose. Read More »How Dare I?

Currently. Volume 2.

Yeah, yeah. This is supposed to be a weekly Monday post. Better a day late than not at all, eh? 😉

I am currently. . .

Looking forward to: (other than the day that my HCG levels are below 5), I am looking forward to hugging Little RJ as he gets off the plane tonight! YES! Tonight is the night! We have him for three weeks & I am SO STOKED to have him here for a bit. I miss him so much.

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