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Can you lead a fulfilling life with bipolar WITHOUT medication?

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder a little over five years ago. At the time, I was only two weeks postpartum with my daughter so medication was off the table. I was breastfeeding & had no intention to stop until we were both ready. At the time, I thought living with bipolar without medication would be a temporary thing. But, now I am wondering if there was something to it… My original psychiatrist told me… Read More »Can you lead a fulfilling life with bipolar WITHOUT medication?

what would you do if you knew you would be dead in just 2 years? The family took a photo on Easter Day 1998. "Pie" was mom's nickname. Get Well Pie.

What If You Were Going to Be Dead in Just 2 Years?

I’m not really dying. Or, at least, I have no real reason to believe it. But, since I was a teenager, I’ve had this irrational belief that I wouldn’t make it to my 41st birthday. I just turned 39 years old. You do the math! So, what would you do if you were going to be dead in just 2 years?? When I was 16 years old, I got a phone call from my step… Read More »What If You Were Going to Be Dead in Just 2 Years?

reta jayne, should i tell people about my bipolar disorder

Should I Tell People About My Bipolar (or other Mental Health Issue)?

When you’ve been diagnosed with some kind of mental health issue, your first emotions are probably a mixture of fright, confusion, defeat, & even shame. You might think, Should I tell people about my bipolar disorder? How could I even fathom sharing such a thing? When I first got my bipolar disorder diagnosis, I certainly had a mix of all of those. But, I also had a sense of relief because I had a label… Read More »Should I Tell People About My Bipolar (or other Mental Health Issue)?

reta jayne, grandma, & eva lee posing for a picture by the river about two years before grandma died

After My Grandma Died

Lately, I have been feeling… Conflicted — & STUCK.

I don’t know how else to describe it. Since my grandma died last month, I’ve felt like I’ve been hit by a truck. I knew it was coming, but it was still a shock when it finally arrived. I cried so many tears leading up to her death I was shocked I had so many left afterward.

But I did.

There were so many, I could hardly breathe.

reta jayne, grandma, & eva lee posing for a picture by the river about two years before grandma died
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Why I Left LuLaRoe

When I joined the ranks of other LuLaRoe retailers, I was so stinkin’ EXCITED! I had several tear-filled conversations with my husband about WHY the huge investment would be so worth it, how I could make it work without taking over our family — & WHY I just NEEDED to do it. But, now, to be explaining why I left LuLaRoe?

Little did I know that just over a year after launching, I would be throwing in the towel.

So what happened?

lularoe, why i left

You have to understand the build-up to grasp the disappointment of the fall.

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The Ripple Effects of Self-Care

It’s been a while… I feel like I never have time.. But, really, it is that I set my expectations for each post higher than it needs to be… I’ll be honest: I write with an audience in mind, sure… My audience is mostly friends & family who like to get updates, with some blogging friends I have made along the way… & there’s an intended audience of those random people out there who just happen to go through similar things as me, who I hope to give hope or insight or just let them know they’re not alone… But, in the end, I write for ME. I write because I feel better when I do… & because it is fun… & because I enjoy the connection & the release… It helps me calm the chaos of my mind. (Thankful #1)

So, with all of that said, I figured I’d sit & write whatever flows out of my head today… & why not make it part of two of my favorite blog hops: Ten Things of Thankful & Finish the Sentence Friday? 😉 I have much for which to be thankful, after all, & all of these things have a ripple effect, flowing into other parts of my life & affecting those I love.

I finished last semester of college with an okay GPA, but I failed one of my four classes. :/ That hit me pretty hard, considering the 4.0 overall GPA I had prior to that… BUT, I have come to terms with it… (Thankful #2) Frankly, I am still damn proud. I managed to pass three classes, maintain an overall honor student status, AND I had a beautiful baby girl during that semester! (Thankful #3) I’d say I am doing okay.

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Smooth Sailing? (A #10Thankful Post)

In many ways, this week has flown by. The boost in confidence that came my way towards the end of last week helped me throw some of my self-criticism aside enough to just be a little happier this week. (Thankful #1) This is not to say that The Bitch didn’t make an appearance — she did; she always does. . . BUT, it is to say that I was able to put her in the background instead of at the forefront, which is good. Hopefully, I can keep this up & it’ll be smooth sailing for a bit. . .

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